04/10/09
Every piece i start to write, soon-to-matter how and why, has a conquering beat in my head: It exists with a tagged hope that it reaches out. And every piece i start to write has a funky kinetic of self-love which cycles back to itself in reference: It says what it wanna be. Because I know and, after a while, it knows that we cannot exist without the minimal amount of meaning we transcend through the screen. Both the author’s connective urge and the text’s paradigm of fatherly sense and immenseness and byzentinean authority over a reader are almost a non-skipped
principle: Align the experience and say it’s happy, unfair, logical, random. Even the chaos is tamed into what’s not 1 2 3 4 5. And the bliss that comes is uncanny: we ever so happily are, itself and the makers of, a story.
It shouldn’t be a shattering surprise in itself. Even thinking about writing this feels essentially tautological. Meaning is ubiquitous and it’s what ties what we tell is an account. Recite any account you give about anything. What i am trying not to fool myself into not further going on about this obvious chimera of literal and existential man is a simple case of a tandem daily: You talk about your day in the city, the non-cathartic selection of sequence should follow the places, the people and how they interacted with a special emphasis on the unexpected and out-of-ordinary. Because the meaning dictates the selection and how the world is sense and what we sense is world as a duo is selected through this dictation. So, a delightful repetition arises. We see we hear we render we sequence we bind in meaning. Then it’s a day. We, in very fine slices, subjectivize.
The experience of subjective is a loss/gain double dynamic in which you build the sense out of lack of absurdity and gain of meaning and defeat the purpose, for the sake of being subjective and tearing away from the approaching cementation of the subject into object, in which you embrace the absurd in search of a new rise of meaning. However, the dictation is as said by meaning, and by meaning only.
08/23/09
This is a point of numerous self-referential grabs, one which is obvious in its gathering. It’s a way. And we must recognize that we have rumbled and rocked in a way. Self-expression, pity, empathy and other pseudo-rational sensitivities are all a way. And we have traveled that way. And wherever we reached and however we did, was like an inclined stroke of a razor over skin, yet we have reached. It was a way.
The way of meaning has rarely made sense because of what time does to us, items of chaos returning and slaying the memory, but that human in human paves the frantic underway of the way and never leaves meaning amiss. Well, one quite interesting resonance of this perseverance is in sciences. The introvert philosopher doing introspection has lasted us (and me) a quite while; the piece so far evidently is a demo of such an effort. Then we did this thing where some body went out and asked: “What happens if [x]?”. Something did happen. Repeat it and again. Then, arguably, in the first time of intellectual encounters on earth, we took a step back to recuperate our meaning. I like this particular anthropomorphic analogy which talks about that time during the refinery of your everyday consciousness; you are waiting for a bus in a freezing weather and you are in shorts because you are heading to the gym but you didn’t think it would be this cold and were too lazy to put on heavy clothing but now you are seriously contemplating of running back to your room to change but the bus might come any minute but the bus is never reliable around here, it is sometimes half an hour late, i might have already missed it, should i just walk, no i cant, oh wait is that a bus, no just an suv. … Suddenly you hear yourself talk and are only concerned with yourself talking. You see that you see, you walk like you are walked. It’s a state of no clear empirical demeanor; an internal grade of sense and introvert assumptions, a meta-self. Everyone has been through a sort or another, so i am not too worried about the message being felt, maybe not understood. The realization of a massive body of another perspective through rational empiricism brought this exact sentiment into an era and almost perfectly transformed into a phenomenological upbringing of the 17th century and on, in an almost exactly personal way of Hegelian evolution of consciousness upgrade.
How did we come around? I don’t have the slightest idea. One would think he would keep forgetting and starting over. But something gave in. And there started a sequence, that bears no exaggeration or resemblance to anything. The fabric of science has been woven everywhere now, not of any exaggeration or resemblance in history.
It’s not my faintest goal to describe science. The example above, by the picture, is a relentless trial, not to describe but relieve it of its relation to object and sample a service for meaning, which claims essence soon. I, rather, will consider this: Science as an entrepreneurship is not too spaced or wildly manufactured of an idea, we all know what companies, be it pharmacological or biomedical, seminal salaries, motivational speeches entail. Science described in such a way is credible and real. Science as a wayward curve of exponentiation, however, is incredible. The human
fallacy that the times of present is full of future and of past haunts the grounds, we still forget, but, but it’s still a wild ride. The former fallacy is a normative one, still in synthesis: The dimension of human understanding and logic is, however infinite, provincial. This conflicting paradigms linearize the way we interact with the world beneath. The perception evolves under the condition of present, always reminiscent and foretelling. Science born to a medium of this drama is surely capable of things of comedy of a chasm, rendering resent of a foreign object as peaceful inquiry, but skinned of a something the whole enterprise is founded for, a satire nonetheless of the patriots of intellect: Objectivity. Here still be dragons.
What i call syndrome of narrative (SON) is beyond object vs subject dilemma. It submerges it. SON is an ache when the meaning rooted in the human condition of self-imagery in survival and meaning in self-imagery tries to embrace its existential contra-matter.
SON is a true syndrome of a thriving persona in science. Put everything in meanigful order and make sense is one thing but to put everything in meaning and its tragedy of objective fatality is SON. Hypothesizing is one thing, make believe assumptions about bits and pieces about the experiments that are put together as the proof is another. But all that things that race in front of your eyes, all your cult presence in the white coat, all the setting, all the passionate aims of a frigid test tube, all that lies and all that is for us is SON. SON is being in a loop of relation with your textbook. SON is being half in touch, half in the gloves. Narration is the ethos, science is the logos. SON is the pathos. Narration is life, science is life-like. SON is the nausea.


point of it. There is only one working assumption i am making in an effort to minimize the heresy: That the method is enlarging and that although the current one rightfully desecrates its future as invalid to its own functioning, the method has changed. High throughput is replacing the hypothesis-making, as Venter Inc. and LHC efforts have showed. Data have changed (no argument here) therefore it’s only fit for the method to adopt the changing data and evolve with it.
virtually every issue so far). However, the important point here is to see the independent worlds science creates that are axiomatic and self-dependent in their respective fields, which also are eternally self-images of each other on different mornings. Each one works like clockwork within itself but its moving parts is a another clock in itself. Moving on..
, it’s solely a holistic matrix the system is relying upon. Atoms interact, true but on a seriously ridiculous level, they bear the identity of a ion transporter. Function. The layer is defined by its function.



